(.+. The Gurl .+.)
(.+. Road down memory lane .+.)
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Hi ppl! This is my last entry before gg off to aussieland for my holidays. Gold Coast here i come! Will be back a week later with lotsa updates & photos on my trip. Stay tuned! Pretty exciting to be on a plane 35,000 feet up in the sky with my darling & futhermore we have been looking forward to this holiday. hehe. But my flu & cough seems to be getting from bad to worst man. Ai yo.. quickly recover lei, if not hw to enjoy myself. I'm off to aussie tonight, a country i loved soo muchie. Safe journey for all of us~ No posts for this period of time when i'm away for holidays so cya in a weeks time!Off to gold coast!
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Oh noo.. i'm down with cough, flu & fever. Why getting sick only at this pt of time when my holidays are jus a day or two away. Sianz. Wanted to see the doctor in the afternoon ytd but clinic closes at noon cos ytd was sun. So no choice.. have to wait untill 7pm, slept the whole afternoon & feeling damn terrible.. hate the feeling of falling sick. Feeling so hot all over & my bones aching so much, took my body temp & it was 38.8 degree celsius.. veri high man. Took a panadol & then went back to rest then eileen called me & we chatted quite awhile on our holiday trip thingy. Dear accompanied me to see doctor after his work at ard 8 plus. Ask the doctor to give me stronger medicine cos i wanna recover faster, hopefully i will recover by tml cos the medicine i'm taking makes me feel so drowsy. Bought bee hoon soup back home to eat but got no appetite so took medicine & went to sleep, dear accompanied me awhile then went off after i fell asleep.
Ytd dear was in a gd mood cos he finally brief in front of those re-service men.. gd job dear! It's not easy to make a briefing infront of so many ppl, all their attention will be place onto u. Wah.. stress! If ask me to do the same i sure cannot one, making presentation infront of a class already makes me tremble. Another reason y he's feeling extremely happy was because he got his mid-bonus.. hehe. Everyone in his camp got it, dun know the rest got hw much but dear got 0.5 bonus.. Happy for him. hehe.
Woke up rather early today cos i had plenty of rest ytd. Did internet check-in for our flight tml nite, it's so convinent! Just need to check-in the airport 1 hr before the flight, the usual check-in time is 2.5 hr & we can choose our own seats, of course i choose window seats. Wahaa haa.. Shall stop here for today, gg to dear hse to help him packed his stuffs. Wish myself a speedy recovery. Tata!1 day to gold coast!
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Ytd afternoon went shopping with dear, come to think of it.. it's been a long time since i went shopping with dear le. Went JP world of sports to take alook first cos they having 50% discount storewide, dear managed to buy 2 addidas running tops for $30. hehe. Cheap bargain cos usually 1 for $25 one. After tat took our lunch at JP long john silver's & then went to check out the exchange rate for aussie dollars. Luckily the rate drop abit from 1.285 on wed to 1.28, which is abt 5 AUD more. Din changed on the spot cos we r gg shopping so decided to change it after our shopping trip. Took train to cityhall cos i wanna get a pair of slippers from citilink charles & keith, bought a similar one as ling's, except tat it is in diff colour. Actually after tat we planned to go chinatown as i wanted to get some shampoo & hair products but in the end too lazy to go so went to walk ard at raffles city & then took train back to JP to change money.
Ytd nite was very very boring, dear went to play basketball at hong kah east with his friends then late at nite went to have seafood with another group of friends. So i stayed at home & watched tv the entire nite & then went to sleep at ard 11 plus. Sianz.. nothing to do at home. Finally registered myself for this year's eng 'O' levels, damn expensive man! Subject fee of $71, basic charges $57 plus gst all add up to a total of $134.40 for one subject. Din expect it to be so ex but aniway have registered myself for it so mus try to do well & pass the paper. This year is the last year cambridge offering eng language subject code: 1120 as an examination subject, from next year onwards the only eng paper they offering would be eng language revised subject code: 1127. Eng language revised is according to the current eng standard in sch, which emphasize more on oral communcation. And they increased the weightage of paper 3: oral from 16% to 20%. Still got few more months before the exams but wished me luck bah.
3 days to gold coast!
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Jus came back from having breakfast with dear nt long ago, meet him below his block & bought breakfast up to his hse then ard 12 plus dear went off to work while i went back to my own hse. Had a veri full breakfast & i'm so sleepy nw. *yawn* Yipee!! Tml is public holiday, dear dun have to work.. gg shopping in the afternoon then at nite we'll gg to start packing abit of our luggage. I've already packed some of my clothes le, so helped dear packed his stuffs will do. As fridays are dear's official off days so he will have a compensate off day which he will try to apply on 6 April (wed). So he dun have to go back to work the following day after our holidays.
Ytd nite dear told me he might be posted to tekong to teach those new recruits, because another personnel will be transfer over to his camp to replaced his sir position & his position as an senior instructor would be taken up by his sir. So either one of them have to be transfer over to other camps, of course i hoping tat he's not the one being transfer out. If he's the one being selected i really hope tat it is on mainland & not tekong. Posting to tekong would mean tat he will have sat & sun offs but it also mean tat he will have to stay in camp on weekdays. Even if he can go home everyday but travelling to & from boon lay & pasir ris will be a waste of time. There are pros & cons to be posted to tekong, the posting is nt finalised yet so can't say much at this pt of time. Just hope tat his sirs would tell their in-charge to let dear stay in his current camp for another 1 or 2 year before being posted to other places. But if dear is not posted ther nw, few years down the road he will also have to teach physical fitness in tekong. It's just a matter of time as in nw or later. Of course staying at mainland would be the best but this is not something we can decide on. So i have to prepare myself for tat, imagine seeing dear only on weekends for 2 to 3 years. Omg! I can't imagine tat. Althought i'm nt veri happy abt dear posting to tekong but i din say anything cos this is his career so no matter where he is posted to i have to support him as well.5 days to gold coast!
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(A song both dear & i like veri much, been listening to it these days)
ANGELS BROUGHT ME HERE - GUY SEBASTIAN
It's been a long and winding journey,
But I'm finally here tonight
Picking up the pieces and walking back into the light
Into the sunset of your glory where my heart and future lies
There's nothing like that feeling when I look into your eyes
My dreams came true when I found you; I found you, my miracle
If you could see what I see
That you're the answer to my prayers
And if you could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
Standing here before you
Feels like I've been born again
Every breath is your love
Every heartbeat speaks your name
My dreams came true right here in front of you my miracle
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayer
And if you could feel the tenderness I feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
Brought me here, to be with you
I'll be forever grateful, oohh forever thankful
My dreams came true when I found you my miracle
If you could see what I see
You're the answer to my prayers, oh...
And if u could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear that angels brought me here
You know i love you baby
And if you could feel the tenderness i feel
You would know it would be clear, that angels brought me here
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Had long john silver for lunch ytd cos dear got some time off so asked him to buy lunch back for me & his sis. Had our lunch then we slack at home. Dear have to go back to camp at ard 2 plus so i went back to my own hse, feeling damn sleepy after having such a full lunch. So took a afternoon nap before meeting ling at JE entertainment center in the evening. Went to get a birthday cake for haohong first & then bought some food to k-box for our dinner. Ling & i reach at ard 7 plus then we started singing first while waiting for the rest to come. Abt 8 plus, everyone come le then it's was singing, chatting & playing games time. An enjoyable nite, it's nice to attend such gathering ocassionally, hope haohong enjoyed himself as well. After cake-cutting session then sang ktv for another 1 or 2 hr then went went home le.
Reach home at ard 2am, was unpacking the things in my bag when i found an envelope in between the camera manual which i brought out to read. What came to my mind immediately was: 'Who place an envelope in my bag?' I thought someone place it in my bag by mistake but my name was on the envelope, so i opened up & see.. it was a sorry card. A silly gal actually went to get a sorry card for me because she was worried tat i would take the previous matter to heart. Thanks for the card & i really appriciate tat.
This evening my daddy & mummy gg to visit my grandma in malaysia & my younger bro is gg to bangkok for holidays. All of them will be coming back only on mon, then the following day would be my turn to be out of the country. So for the next few days, the kitchen would be mine. Wahaa haa. I'm gg to be a chef & cook gd food for my elder bro & my dear. I seldom cook but i love to cook when nobody's at home or when mummy's out of the country. Like to have the kitchen to myself & cook without any disturbance. I wish them all a safe journey! A safe journey for me, dear, eileen & david too!
6 More Days to Aussie (Gold Coast) 
Front: Jing Yi, Sylvester, HaoHong(Birthday Boy) & EileenBack: Xiaoling & Choon Yan
(Alright! I know some are unfamiliar faces cos i seldom meet up with this group of ppl)
(Ohh noo.. half of my face is covered by haohong's head) 
(The guys & eileen) 
(The gals)
(Eileen & me~)
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Yipee! 8 more days to gold coast! I'm counting down..
Jus receive a piece of gd news from kaiqin, everything's settled! Previously we had some problems on arranging our airport transfers since we will be taking cab to her place in brisbane city area first before taking airtrain to gold coast. But gd news was we could take train from airport to city and then city to gold coast with the limousine pick up to our hotel. Great isn't it? We don't even have to take cab to her place. Still waiting for reply from the ppl at aussie on whether the price she gave me was for single or return trip.
Went to look for my aunt at suntec city ytd evening because i wanna do re-bonding, my mum went as well cos she wanted to trim her hair. Suntec was so packed with ppl man, alot of ppl went there because of the natas fair. Did re-bonding, colouring & trimming ytd.. hehe, all in one. Really veri thanks to my aunt, always trouble her to help me do my hair. Speaking abt my this aunt, she's very gd one, always dote on us & try to find time & help us do our hair despite her bz schedule. Save alot of money on doing colouring, re-bonding, treatment & all. Gonna get her a gift when i go to gold coast to thank her for all the things she has done for us all these years. 
She's a great aunt! Simply love my hair nw because they were so straight & so much neater than before. hehe.
It's pictures time! Here are some of the pics we took at sakae sushi with my friends, some din turn up due to work commitments but nvm.. we can arrange for another gathering in future. These are the bunch of friends who have been with me through thick & thin during sec sch days. And i treasure them more that anything else. 
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I'm perfectly fine nw, no more hard feelings after i blogged out my thoughts. My friend told me tat i sounded angry in my previous entry, it's more of upset at tat pt of time but i'm okay nw. Actually was thinking of deleting the previous post away but thought i should jus leave it there since blogger is meant to be a space to publish thoughts & feelings.
Went to the 'Teaching as a Career' seminar at orchard hotel ytd afternoon. Met eileen at boon lay control station first before gg to the seminar together, reach the hotel 10 to 15mins before the sitting time but there were alot of ppl waiting outside the ballroom already. Was very surprised tat so many ppl, abt thousand plus of them turned up for the seminar. Din knew tat so many ppl were interested in teaching as well. It was a 2hrs seminar, basically the things they went through in the seminar were things i already knew cos all the info can be found on MOE webbie. The Q & A session was the most beneficial cos some speakers pointed out some of my doubts as well. Had some pastry & tea after the whole seminar & then stayed for awhile to meet eileen's ex- colleague who was working at orchard hotel. Orchard hotel quite nt bad, hotel lobby & ballroom quite spacious. A pity i din bring my cami along cos the clock tower in the middle of the hotel lobby was a perfect view for taking photos. Jus too bad! Dun know y got this habit of taking photos everywhere we went, wanna capture down beautiful memories. Took some photos at sakae sushi the other day as well but still waiting to get the rest of the photos on my friends cami before i upload them here. Stay tuned for the photos..
Went to Tony Roma's at orchard hotel arcade shopping center which was just beside orchard hotel to look for another ex- colleague of eileen's. Sat ther & chatted for awhile before taking train home. Alighted at clementi station & waited for dear to finish work. Went jp to walk ard as well as to check out the exchange rates for aussie dollars with dear. Omg! The rate so high nw man, hopefully the rates gg to drop these few days. Holidays coming real soon but haven't even started preparing my stuffs yet. Finally uploaded the sing: 'Moving On by Toya' onto my blog, love it so muchie. Was searching high & low for tat song, the lyrics fer tat song is so meaningful. (Jason.. thanks for helping me download the song) Alright! Gonna go & prepare myself le, gg out later. This weekend seems to pass veri fast, tml's mon again. Tata~
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I know i shouldn't be writing all these here but i won't be able to get to sleep tonight if i don't blog out hw i'm feeling right nw. I'm feeling soooo upset & unhappy!! I overheard a conversation which i wasn't supposed to hear while having sakae sushi with my friends jus nw. But just too bad, my ears was sharp enough to hear tat because basically they were talking in front of me. How could i have miss tat? Aniway, i'm not gg to elabroate what i heard exactly but it was indeed very very hurting. How i wish i din heard it or i wasn't ard at tat moment. I'm veri easily affected by wat ppl say abt me, it's very hurting when ur friends pass such a comment abt u when u actually thought of them & put in an effort to make something for them.
Nobody's gonna understand hw i feel, i know i'm being petty as well but i just can't treat it tat i heard nothing. Just felt tat all the effort & time i put in gone down the drain. Pls put me into ur shoes, if someone were to pass such a comment right in front of u, comparing ur work with someone else, hw will u feel? I'm very angry!! People close to me, esp my family members & dear will know hw bad-temper & petty i can be at times. But i seldom show this side of me to my friends, keeping those unhappiness deep inside my heart because i don't wanna affect our friendship. But i think i'm gg to explode one day if i continue to keep them all in my heart, i'm nt commenting solely based on wat happened tonight, all these are accumulated over time & i need a space to pour out all my unhappiness. The only person i could pour my unhappiness to is dear but we will always end up quarreling instead because he felt tat alot of times i could speak up for myself one but i didn't & thus making myself to be in an disadvantage. Blame me? Blame my character instead for not speaking up for myself at times. Still rmb i did a quiz on personality type sometime in feb & the results suggest tat i was a Nurturer who run the risk of being taken advantage of. Is it true? Din enjoyed dinner tonight, wasn't in a gd mood.. kept silent the entire night after i overheard the conversation. Ate veri little as well, din even eat my fav tuna mayo sushi. What a night for me!
Yenting bf drove us home, went home take a bath then immediately went over to dear hse. Dear knew i was unhappy so he suggested gg to 7-11 to get the hello kitty watch for me to try to cheer me up. But too bad the watch wasn't available at this outlet so in the end nv buy. Feel so much better after pouring everything out.. tml will be a better day~ It really doesn't pay to be kind.
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Called up MOE just nw to cmf with them once more on whether i can re-take my eng 'O' levels this year & at the same time apply for the post of teaching. I called them up before & they told me can but i find it strange lei, y would they process my application when i haven't met their admission criteria. Even if im re-taking it this year, i will only get my 'O' results next year feb or march & training for NIE starts this july. So called them up to clarify & true enough i can't apply for the teaching post & at the same time re-take my 'O'. Actually i sort of expected tat but since the lady which i called the first time round told me can so i chose to believe her. But ended up, she gave me wrong infomation. Shit! So have to wait till next year then can apply for the teaching post & tat is provided i managed to pass my eng 'O' this year. But no worries.. cos i'm gonna work hard & brush up on my eng & hopefully i pass with a gd grade. Being a teacher is my ambition so i'm not gg to give up without even trying. So gonna wait for a year & c hw bah but in the meantime i'm gonna look for a job & work while re-taking my 'O'.
Told eileen abt the 'Teaching as a Career' Seminar this sat at orchard hotel & she's interested to go. Dun now if i should go to the seminar as well, cos i can only apply next year. I'm still deciding cos it's abit sianz to visit the seminar but i can't apply for it. Really regret tat i din re-take my eng last year, last year already got plans to re-take one but thought they would only look at my poly dip instead of 'O' level cert tat's y din re-take. But who knows, the admission criteria for NIE is poly diploma & 5 'O' levels passes including eng & maths. Haiz.. nw regret also too late already.
On a happier note.. in less than 2 weeks time i will be out of sg enjoying the beautiful scenery of brisbane city area, never- ending fun in gold coast as well as to enjoy the sun, sand & sea in surfer's paradise. I can't wait to enjoy this wonderful vacation with my darling & of course eileen as well. These days rather bz searching for info on the internet on the shopping centers & the buses to take at gold coast. ~Busy Busy~ The directories on brisbane & gold coast ling borrowed us comes in handy as well. thanks thanks! I'm gonna do re-bonding this sun to restore back my smooth & straight hair, my hair been so messy all over after i layered it. Decided to drop the idea of permed hair after heeding advices from my friends tat permed hair are hard to maintain. Straight hair still the BEST! Son of mask is showing in cinemas tml, dun know when dear got time to accompany me watch tat movie. Dear's so bz these days, have to go for life-saving course & all tat. He can be a life - guard after he complete the course, gd for him.. at least can learn alot of things. So proud of him! Unlike me who has got so little skills & so useless, the world will still go round even without me. hehe~ But the world of my darling & my family will not go round without me around.
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Bought a maui & son tee & a photo frame for dear's birthday present. Spend alot of time & effort looking for backgrounds & editing the photos. The photo frame can hold up to 12 photos but i'm only uploading 7 photos here, if nt it will take a long time to load all the pics. Aniway.. hope dear likes the photo frame. Wan to remind him of the beautiful memories we have been through all these years.
Ytd nite ji xiang & shiling already bought a big cake in JB for dear le so i jus bought some small cakes from breadtalk. Looks so delicious rite?
(Bought these 2 tees at OG while out shopping with eileen the other day. Besides buying dear's tee, i aso bought one fer myself. It looks like couple tees cos both are of the same colour)
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12/03/2005: Cycling at east coast park
Went cycling with my 2 dear friends at east coast park on sat afternoon. We seldom meet up on weekends cos weekends are reserved for bfs but all our darlings have their own activities this sat so we decided to have a gals's outing ourselves. Cycle all the way to bedok jetty & took photos, a pity tat we din cycle further up cos the scenery ther is more beautiful esp when the sun is setting. But we were too tired to cycle further up, was too exhausted after cycling for abt 2hrs. Dear & i always cycle those double bicycle whenever we went cycling at east coast park, haha.. at times can let dear cycle alone while i enjoy the scenery. Still prefer to cycle those double bike instead of cycling alone, at least nt so tiring. Lazy me. Took shuttle bus to Dhoby Ghaut mrt station at ard 7 plus & then went JP for dinner with eileen. Had our late dinner then headed for home. Went home, took a shower then went to sleep le, too tired! Dear went shopping in JB with his friends, couldn't get him the whole day cos there's no reception in JB. But luckily managed to talk to him over the phone before i went to bed. Dear bought 3 tees & a pair of jeans for himself & a pink converse tee for me.. hehe. At least still got think of me while out shopping with his friends. Happy.. Happy!
(Dear bought this pinky tee from city square)
13/03/2005: Movie & Shopping at JB
Surprisingly i din have any muscular ache went i woke up ytd morning. Went to dear's wa-ma hse to celebrate her birthday first before meeting ji xiang & shiling for our trip to JB. Ji xiang's bro is free so he drove us to woodlands checkpt. Went to watch 'Robots' at city square first, thumbs up fer the movie. I would rate 4 out of five stars for the movie. A heart-warming story that proves that 'A Robot can shine no matter what he is made of'. I think it's a great movie, those who haven't watch it pls find time to watch. It's so hilarious.. like the part where Rodney's dad told him to go & pursue his dreams if not his dreams will haunt him for the rest of his life. Find tat phrase very meaningful, ppl live for their dreams & ambitions, tat's our motivation in life rite? After movie, went to arcade center then walk ard city square for awhile before ji xiang brought us to a place (forgot the name already) for dinner. Nice dinner we had! yummy.. ordered buttered crayfish, satay, fried oyster & many more, so delicious & cheap.
After dinner, went to shop ard the place & then went back to city square. Bought a off-shoulder long sleeve top & a black mickey mouse tank top, love the mickey mouse top so muchie. Can't decide whether to buy black or white one, so in the end bought the black one instead. If gg to city square again, i wanna buy the white one as well.hehe.. so happy with the purchase. Shiling & ji xiang behaving so strangely cos they say wanna meet us 10mins later at coffeebean & ask the both of us to go shopping ourselves first. Actually they went to buy a birthday cake for dear, a surprise for him. I was kept in the dark as well.. ai ya, they should have let me know mah.hehe. Dear muz b very happy tat his gd friends celebrated his birthday for him in such a way. Ate the cake, took pics at coffeebean & along the way then we went back to sg le. Wah! The custom on both sides (sg & malaysia) so packed with ppl man & the queue for the bus across the causeway was very long. It's faster to walk across the causeway then to wait for the bus, so in the end the 4 of us walk all the way across the causeway. wow! wow! Long journey u know? I think we spend 20-25mins walking across the causeway, sweating like hell man. Finally reach the sg custom at ard 11 plus then the 4 of us share cab home.
Really enjoyed myself alot today, gg out with ji xiang & shiling was fun. hehe. Would like to have more of such outing in future.
Alright! It's pictures time!
(Mickey mouse tank top i bought from city square)
(Off shoulder long-sleeve top, $15 sg)
(Birthday Boy & me with birthday cake)
(Happy couples)
(Birthday Boy & me)
(We are Friends for Life!)
~Happy 23rd Birthday Darling!!~
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10/03/2005: Exhausted day
Ytd was a hectic day, rush here & there the whole morning, all because of dear loh! Lost his home keys, then got to go to his mum workplace & get the keys from her. On the way home, went to make another 2 sets of keys, 1 is to replace dear's lost keys & the other is for me to safekeep, jus in case they forgot to bring their keys. Travelling over to my place to get the keys is so much nearer than travelling to his mum workplace. Went to his house & rest for less than 45mins then we went out again. Went to return the keys to his mum if nt she won't have keys to enter home after her work then we took bus to JP, so tired & ytd weather was damn hot. Accompany ling to mediacorp for audition first then went to bugis, bought a sling bag from bugis street first before gg to sakae sushi. Unbelievable, ling & i sat there for almost 2 & 1/2 hrs, next time round i got another must-order dish besides tuna mayo sushi & Chanwanmushi, tat's is somen. Tat's ling's fav but i'm beginning to like it more & more. hehe. Had a very full dinner tat nite. Still have abit of time so we went to shop ard bugis junction then headed for home. Met dear at boon lay mrt station & then took bus home together.
11/03/2005: Emotional day
This morning set alarm clock to wake up at 7:30am but woke up at 8:15am instead. Mum was sooo suprised when she saw me early in the morning. hehe. Normally i would sleep till 9 plus or 10 then wake up one. Woke up so early today cos meeting dear to go to jurong east sports complex for gym one. Dear's working as gym instructor at JE sports complex for his gym attachment & still left with last session so decided to go with him to do abit of exercise as well as to see hw he work there. haha. In the end aso nv go, cos dear's having abit of headache, actually i aso dun feel like gg one. wahaa haa. But aso abit waste my time ar, woke up early in the morning to prepare myself & get dressed in sporty attire. And the worst thing is something happened this morning which triggered a big quarrel between dear & i. Actually i know he's jus showing concern to me & trying to speak up for me but at tat pt of time i jus couldn't take his advice. But we made up soon after the both of us cool down.
Volunteered to go downstairs & get lunch for dear cos i need to collect the photos i send for developing. Dun know whether dear suspect anything anot, cos usually when he ask me to go buy breakfast or lunch i always dun wan to go one. I'm too lazy to go downstairs to buy cos i know dear will definately go down & buy one. haha. take advantage of him. So disappointing as well, the outcome of the photos was even worst than the ones i develop few days ago. And this time round the lady at the photoshop din help me to auto fit into 4R cos i told her tat i've already set to the correct sizes. So in the end, the frames & wordings all kena crop off. Aniway... i give up trying to set to the correct sizes so ask her to help me re-print again & to do auto fitting. Waste so much of my time & money on developing those edited photos over & over again. Hopefully dear will like this present bah, i spend alot of time on it. Ate our lunch, watch tv & slack at home the whole afternoon till ard 4pm the both of us went JP library to borrow books. Dear borrowed books on fitness while i borrowed some cookery books, wanna make him lunch on mon, his exact birthday. But i can't think of any dish to cook lei... thinking real hard.
Pics of the edited photos i made for eileen & ling:
(This one's fer eileen)
(And this one fer ling..)
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As usual, dear called me in the moring trying to wake me up. I was already awake 
& was preparing to go over to his hse. I knew he was gg to do tat so the nite before i set my hp alarm to wake up at 09:30 in the morning. Met below his blk & went to buy breakfast together. Dear went to work already, nw all alone at his hse typing this blog entry, so sianz! Nobody's at home, the entire hse feels so quiet & empty which makes me feel so empty deep inside too.
Was telling dear tat i feel like teaching in kindergarden or pri sch so immediately went to search for some relevant info on the internet. The requirements for poly diploma holders are poly dip cert & 5 passes in GCE 'O' levels, including english & maths. But i fail my eng during 'O' levels so gonna re-take it again this year. Luckily application haven't start yet, it starts on 14 march 2005. Called the ppl at NIE & she says tat i can apply for the training while re-taking my 'O'. Was still full of ambition jus nw, called dear & told him abt it. But nw tat i have think it through carefully i start to doubt on my capability, thinking about negative things like 'Can i succeed?' & many other doubts abt myself. All these discourages me once again.
There's alot of stages i have to go through if i choose teaching as my career. Firstly, i have to pass my 'O' levels eng, take a entrance proficiency test, go for a interview at MOE & if my application is successful then i will undergo a 2 yrs training at NIE. Have to go through all tat before i can served a 3 yrs bond with NIE. Tat seems tough isn't t? The STRESS comes from the 2 yrs training in NIE, i have to make sure i pass at the end of the training if nt have to pay MOE. As they will be giving me a monthly gross allowance of abt 1.6k during the training. I have to go through so much & at the end of the day it does nt guarantee tat i can be a teacher. Human beings or maybe i should say i'm like tat, always want to find the easy way out in life. I dun know wat's holding me back, teaching was my ambition since young but i'm afraid to make the first step and esp with all the bad thoughts abt nt being able to succeed haunting me at the back of my mind. I dun think i can make it though i keep telling myself tat i will work hard & do my best. Maybe i should just look for other jobs, drop the idea of being a teacher & forget abt the whole thing. I'm in a dilemma!! Gonna discuss with dear again & seek his opinions. But aniway.. i'm gonna re-take my eng 'O' this year even if i drop the idea of becoming a teacher. Wanna see whether my eng standards have improved over the years. I'm gg to brush up on my english 
Conclusion: After discussion with dear, i decided to drop the whole idea. It's not worthwhile gg through so much when there are so many uncertainties. Aniway.. nt gg to speak abt this matter again. Hopefully i won't regret it in the future.
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Woke up rather early this morning & suddenly felt like eating bombay toast so prepared it for my breakfast. Then went central to collect the photos i send for developing, jus as i expected the photos din turn out the way i wanted. I think the sizes i set for the edited photos was too big & thus causing the frames of some photos to be cropped away & some having white spaces at the sides of the photos. Only 1 or 2 photos turned out the way i wanted. Haiz.. gonna redo some of them & set them to the correct sizes before i send them for developing again. Luckily still got time for me to make the changes. Met dear at jp in the evening and accompany him for dinner at kfc & then walk ard jp for awhile. Rather boring today, nothing much to do, i hope weekends come quickly cos weekends gonna b very fun.
Chatted with kaiqin on msn today & decided tat we should visit her on the first day of our holidays since her place is nearer to the airport then to gold coast. It takes abt an hr to travel from brisbane airport to gold coast. It will be too time consuming if we wanna leave our luggage at the hotel first then travel all the way to brisbane city to visit her. And the other thing is i dun know hw to get to brisbane city from gold coast, nt sure abt wher to take train. Gonna leave our luggage at kaiqin place first before she bring us round brisbane city area for shopping. hehe. Think i shall start packing some of the things i wanna bring for the holidays next week. Mus ask dear to start preparing his stuffs as well, if nt he always last min one then end up i will b the one doing the packing for him. But aniway.. i will definately help him with the packing.
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Wah!! 
Dear's gg to have alot of long holidays for the remaining weeks of march. So i'm gg to come up with a whole list of fun activites & programs which we can do over the holidays. Looks like i'm more like his personal assistant who helps him plan his off days. haha 
But sad to say this month is budget month if nt we can book a chalet at downtown east or chevrons & enjoy those long holidays. It would de damn fun isn't it? But nevertheless we r gg to have awhole lot of fun 
even without the chalets. March & the beginning of april are the remaining time left for me to get crazy & enjoyed myself before i get myself a new job. After holidays would be the time where my working journey starts again & i will be full of energy after recharging my batt for a whole 3 months. Well shall nt plan too far ahead for the holidays yet, shall start with this coming weekend (11-14 march) first. Thinking of organising something to celebrate dear's bday, maybe a small BBQ session or steamboat which will involve his family members or maybe i shall bake him a cake myself. Haha.. i think nobody ever bake a bday cake for him before just like i've nv bake for someone before. I'm nt sure, i'm still planning. Planing, Planning, Planning... 
Wahaa haa.
Well, ytd met eileen at chinatown pt at ard 4pm to make the remaining payment for our holiday package at chan bros. Paid for the package & got our hotel vouchers & admissions vouchers to all the worlds. I think the Sunshine Coast Experience Tour on our second day will be very fun cos we will b visiting many attractions like australia zoo which was owned by Crocodile Hunter Steve Irwin, we will be visiting Big Pineapple & Superbee Honey Factory as well. So many places to visit in a day & then the attractions there closes very early like 5 or 6pm, even those worlds closes early too. Dun know if we hav enough time to complete all the rides & exhibitions. Speaking of the holidays make me feel all excited 
again. Aniway.. back to where we went ytd, went to walk ard OG & bought 2 tees from maui & son, they r having promo 2 for $29. So bought 1 for ming as his other bday present & 1 for myself. Eileen bought them too, 1 for david & 1 for her colleague. Both of us bought 'M' size for our darlings, only to find out tat it was too big. I think it's american sizes tat's y the medium looks like large size. Arh! 
Have to bring down & change again & i think there's no more small size for the design i wanted to get for him. Shit! All those nice ones dun have small sizes le. After shopping at OG, the both of us were chatting abt exchange rates thingy only then did i realised tat all along i was wrong abt the exchange rate. OMG!!! 
I got it all messed up! Exchange rate currently is abt 1 aussie to $1.28 sin & $1 sin to $0.78 aussie and all the while i thought it was $1 sin to 1.28 aussie. Tat was a very big diff. When i visit those money changer they always show like sin to aussie is 1.28 so i thought it was $1 sin to 1.28 aussie. Stupid me. I was wrong all the while! So gonna cut down on shopping at gold coast le & since the things ther gg to be very ex. Haiz.. left chinatown & took train to meet dear at clementi while eileen waited for david to knock off at chinatown alone. On the way, called dear & told him abt the messed up & he told me he know abt it but he dun know abt the exchanged rate currently tat's y he nv corrected me. The more he told me he knew tat $1 sin is 0.78 aussie, the more i felt i was dumb. Ya.. stupid me! He says sometimes the way i think is very diff from ppl, in short means no logic lah. Ya.. agree! Tat time the both of us was discussing something regarding to time one, i also got it all messed up. It's nt dun know hw to tell the time lah, it's more like, ermm.. let me think wat we were discussing tat day. Eg: If i wanna set the alarm clock on my hp to ring at 12am tonite (6 march), do i set the alarm as 12am, 6 march or 12am, 7 march? After the discussion with dear, i realised i was wrong. haha. I'm very poor in maths & this kinda of date & time stuffs which involves another day from day to night. Maybe tat explains y i always flunked math in pri & sec sch. Watever lah! Maybe some of u reading might b thinking tat i'm stupid to have made such silly mistakes but nvm at least i learn from my mistakes. Ppl make 
mistakes & learn from them rite?
Met dear at clementi & had dinner at the clementi central, ate sesame oil chicken & satay. Sesame oil chicken was soo soo
delicious. After dinner, told bus 99 home & asked dear to opened the advance bday present. Luckily asked him to open ytd if nt i also dun know the tee-shirt was so big. Just nw dad was asking me whether i bought my air tickets already & he says he wanna pay for my air tickets. Maybe he din knew tat mum is gg to giv me some $ for the holiday trip tats y he wanna pay for the air tickets. I told him i got money myself so dun wanna get from him. Hw can i get from him, my dad is retired & he need to use money aso. I should be giving him money instead of getting it from him rite. Speaking of this, i feel so unfilial, i've been giving them $100 each every month while i was working in toshiba. But i only gave them during the first 3 or 4 months cos subsequently i find tat i dun have enough money for my own use & thus stopped giving them anymore money. I feel so gulity & useless at times. Alright.. tat's all for today, have been blogging almost every single day this week. Shall MIA for a few days... no lah! Just joking! Will be back with more updates soon. Ciaoz! 
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(A very nice song! Will upload the song soon)
Moving On
by Toya
just getting used to wakin' up every day
'n' not seeing your face
i just began to stop setting your place
and i stopped longin' for your warm embrace
and it was God that made me able
to finally sleep at night
though you're not by my side
finally i don't hardly cry
see right when i start letting go
somebody wants to let me know
can they take your place
no they can't fill your space - no
i tried to move on but you're not gone
cuz in my heart you still live on
see now i know why
i'll never love another for the rest of my life and why
now that your gone i'm holdin' on
cuz deep in my heart i wanna move on
and now i know why
i'll never love another for the rest of my life
i finally put your clothes away
you know the ones you wore the day
that you were takin' away from me
i just began to stop wearin' my ring
and i finally stopped playin' our song
when i realized i was dancin' alone and
finally God gave me strength
to go on and breathe again
see right when i start letting go
somebody wants to let me know
can they take your place
no they can't fill your space - no
i tried to move on but you're not gone
cuz in my heart you still live on
so now i know why
i'll never love another for the rest of my life and why
and now that your gone
i'm holdin' on
cuz deep in my heart i wanna move on
and now i know why
i'll never love another for the rest of my life
God knows it's time for me to move on
i wanna feel alive again
i wanna be in love again
and no matter how hard i try
i can't erase you from my mind
and i gotta find somebody new
but i just can't get over you
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Saw ling & elvin at jurong east mrt station while on our way to westmall, it's so coincidence man. I din saw them at first, it's dear who saw ling first, i think we were all on the same train but just 1 or 2 cabin away. Was still chatting with ling when i met her at je, have been chatting on msn for many hrs liao then see each other still got things to say. haha. If gt chance to stay over at each other hse we sure can chat from nite till morning one. Gals r gals.. forever got so many things to gossip & chat abt one. hehe. So dear & i went ahead to westmall, nt much time left so i went to get the tickets while dear went to get modem from singnet, had our dinner at burger king first then enter the cinema to watch 'Lemony Snickets : A Series Of Unfortunate Events'. After the movie, took train back to boon lay then slowly strolled back home from jp. From jp to my hse quite far wor, took us 15-20mins to reach home. But it was gd, at least gt sweat abit, better than nt doing any exercise at all.
Just reach home nt long ago, well i'm so disappointed 
with the movie. The newpaper rated 4 out of 5 for the movie but i think it is worth 2.5 stars only. Seriously i dun think it is worth spending money & time watching this movie cos it's quite 
boring. The only thing worth mentioning abt this movie is the cute little baby named 'sunny' who had very sharp teeth & enjoy bitting things, she just so adorable tat u would wan to pinch her rosy cheeks. Alright enough of reviews for the movie, watch the movie urself to find out more but it's not recommended to do so.
Well.. before gg to watch movie dear told me on the phone tat ytd both his mum & dad subsequently asked him the same question: 'When the both of us wanna get married?' I was so shocked 
when dear told me this & the same goes for dear. Wahaa haa. Maybe the both of them think that we have been together for so long & we are quite stable liao. And the thing is his dad ask him first & then later his mum asked the same question again when she came back from work. It can't be tat coincidence rite? Two person asking such a shocking question in a day.. they mus have discuss abt this among themselves first. It must be! My immediate response was to ask dear hw he replied them. 'Not so fast lah' was dear's reply to both of them, jus as i expected cos both of us definately dun have plans at the moment, although i thought of it (i dun know for dear) but financially & mentally still not ready yet. Definately 
nt now, maybe 1 or 2 years later.. i dun know. But i'm sure, i'm nt ready nw.. though i kept dreaming 
abt getting married early but it's different when u dream & when u actually think deeply into it. I only thought of it on the surface, only when this question was asked by someone else then i realised tat i dun wan to make a lifelong commitment so soon. My ideal age of getting married is 24 or 25, the earliest would b 23, i need 1 or 2 more years to settle down. Dear's dad was saying if dun wanna get married nw can go ROM first then apply for a house. I was quite happy he said tat, cos tat means they dun mind tat we r living on our own after we get married. Tat means to say i dun have to worry abt living under the same roof with my in-laws. Wahaa haa. They wan us to have our own house as well! It's nt tat i dun wanna live together with them but living under the same roof such gt alot of conflicts 
one. We can have more freedom & a space of our own if we have our house. But marriage is definatley not on the cards right nw.. i'm very sure of tat. But i'm glad his parents asked, actually i was overjoy 
when dear told me tat. The feeling was GREAT 
, it was like an acceptance from them. I was thrilled 
